MAY-be

This May, perhaps teaches me another lessons to grow. 

Sometimes I couldn't understand why but in the end I'm learning that actually everything that I'm going through have reasons. 

                                       Everything has a reason. 

 

I have to believe that I can go through these all. 

The mundane life, difficult days, happy days... Everything. With the help of God, with the help of families and friends or even strangers. 

... It doesn't have direct correlation with love. Everything I've talked before, but somehow explaining it with this topic sounds more understandable. 

Well, sometimes I'm too afraid for being on my own, like you can say being single. 

Although when I'm doing something I can say that I can do it on my own. I can go to the hospital by myself, going to supermarket alone, McD time on my own, or hanging out at a cafe with one cup of coffee (read:I'm alone).

Let's say that I don't hate being alone but it's more awesome if I can do everything I like with someone special. 

... Yet, sometimes I also don't want to be in a situation where I can't become myself, not so sure about my own self, or afraid of serious relationship. 

By the way, I'm sure that everyone has their own struggles, some might have the same thoughts as mine, and it's okay isn't to not rushing everything, just because we want to be like somebody elses? 

It's my own journey of finding my other half.  There will be the time when I will finally say, "It's worth a wait!! "

Maybe right now your journey is about you. 

 

Yes darling, Maybe your journey now is not about love. Maybe right now your journey is about you. Maybe this is a season you are being challenged to be your own savior. 

To be your own safe place. Maybe right now you are being reminded that the people who walked away were only ever leading you back to yourself. Were only ever leading you here. 

And here, you are okay on your own. You're rebuilding. 

Here you're adapting and mending and reclaiming all of the pieces you let them walk away with. 

Here, you are being kinder to your soul. 

You're giving yourself the same kind of love you have always given to others. 

Here, you are not rushing your heart. 

You are not depending on another human being to fix it. Instead, here, you are doing that on your own. 

Here, you are healing. [cr: @rainbowsalt]

And... The lessons to be learned. 

I'm not going to rush anything. 

I'm not going to stress out or worry about how things will work out for me. Instead of overthinking, I will align my faith with divine timing and trust that everything that belongs in my life is making its way towards me right now. I know that the universe will deliver. In the meantime, I'll continue to get better and evolve so I can make room for new energy to enter my life.