The Kind of Silence I want to Hold

Maybe,

I feel that
Not everything quiet is empty.
Not everything slow is rejection.

However, I don't fully understand the silence that sometimes exists between us.
But I do recognize the clarity you have already shown.

You choose to continue the process with me.
You introduced me to your sister and to your parent. You spoke to my father.
I don't take them lightly 'cause those things matter to me.

At the same time, you never made such promisesーand I respect that.
What we have feels quiet : small gestures, brief check-ins, simple hellos.
But not like other type of love which is often shown publicly or emotionally.

There was a time when I found tranquility in this kind of silence...
However, I won't deny that sometimes I'm going little bit crazy, I struggleー especially when I take a look to other people's standards of love and affection.

I hope it's the right way.
I want to believe this quiet is a choice rooted in intention.
Where you want to keep this process good, respectful, and halal.
Not because of a lack of interest. 

I once came across words that spoke about a man choosing restraint out of respect for a woman. He protects her heart while leading with responsibility.
And I hoped that reflected your values too.
That this silence means safety, not distance.

I in this term, I am still myself.
I don't want to lose myself for love.

I am chasing my dreams, doing the things I love, staying productive. 
I want to grow into Who I am meant to be.

I don't want to love only with emotion.
I want clarity, logic, and faith to guide me.

I place everything in Allah's hand.
I trus His timing and His plan.

I just hope...
that the person written in that plan is you.

What is written for me will not miss me.
And what misses me was never written.

For now,
I place this heart in Allah's care,
because He holds it better than I ever could.