Is this right? Not right, but it's alright

Spending time thinking about someone who doesn't know that we're thinking about them is sometime wasted. 

Your're not a blame. It's only me who loves to watch your eyes. I feel those eyes energize me. Makes me flutter. Since I spoke, I just don't need your argument but those eyes, already tell more. 

I spoke to me after that, beginning to transform the meaning of those eyes. 

Truthfully, it's hurt when you don't feel the same. 

I just can't help to think about it. In the same time, I doubt it. I never expect that you will feel the same. 

It is me and me. And you with you. Not us. 

It's hard to believe that something is already different between us. I used to not care almost about everything. And it's just okay. Everything is beautiful, or just okay. 

But when I realize I have feelings for you, I just more prone to be hurt. Even you know nothing.

The message that I used to type, not thinking that much, now I think about it. Does it really good? Or will you reply it soon? Will you make it last longer? Or will you ended up soon? 

I used to not asking much attention. But now, I'm afraid if you're not asking anything to me. I scared if you left me, or never remind me about something important. Or just never replying my message. 

Is it right?

I'm happy if you asking about something and I master on it. I like it when you can solve my problem, or just giving me clue what should I do.

Sorry, I make a mistake again. 

We're nothing but friend. Yeah. 

And can I hope for more?

No, it's alright. I just don't want you getting far, further from now. I just have to do nothing, and let everything just like this.