This month a best friend of mine was holding her wedding ceremony. 

We're witnessing her sacred ritual, eventually. 

We seemed to know her love story as both the brides are the from the same major.

I got 50k for answering a quiz 😁

That's the first time after a long time we didn't see each other since our graduation farewell. 

This time, we're still the same, the same people years ago when we first begun our friendship. 

We're just the same people whose distance away us but our connection remains. 

We bring nostalgic moment from the past and somehow looking each others, that it's so much different. 

I'm not lying. We're still the same people, we're still the same person. 

It's just our ways are different. It's just our environment shape us into a better person. It's just we are together but bring our own stories. 

And what? 

Beside Agi (the bride), the idea of looking for partner has arising between us, among my best friends. However, we keep reminding each other, that

"If there is someone that ask you to lower your standards, don't! 

Marry the one who brings peace to your heart. 

It is the person who understands the calamity behind your silence. 

It is the one who is loyal, caring and envelope you with trust. 

Seems that we've reached the half of this year, eh?

I'm going to welcome this July with a new spirit. A new journey to embrace. 

It has been one of the greatest and most difficult months of my life. 

Yet, these past few months I learned a lot. 

I learned that in this world, everything is just temporary. 

Moments. Feelings. People. Flowers. Kindness. 

And you know, I want to know that love is an action. I learned that love is about giving—everything—and letting it hurt. 

Wait... what?

Hahaha, yea that is what I knew from my past experiences. 

I learned all the things come in twos :

Life and death.

Pain and joy. 

Sugar and salt. 

Me and you. 

It is the balance of universe.

“God turns you from one feeling to another and teaches by means of opposites so that you will have two wings to fly, not one”

― Rumi

We must learn to focus on warm energy, always. 

Soak our limbs in it and become better lovers to the world, for if we can't learn to be kinder to each other how will we ever learn to be kinder to the most desperate parts of ourselves. 

*This post was inspired from Rupi Kaur. 

Apakah kamu sedang lelah?   Coba beristirahatlah sejenak....

疲れたとき、みなさんも空を、見上げてみましょうね☆ Ketika kamu lelah, lihatlah langit, lalu tersenyum.

Jika dalam menjalani hidup adakalanya terasa sangat berat, sehingga tak kuasa membendung tangis, maka beristirahatlah sebentar. 

Terkadang beban itu perlu dilepaskan sebentar, tidak untuk dipikul terus. 

Seringkali saat tubuh lelah, kita lebih mudah untuk mempertanyakan hal-hal yang seharusnya tidak perlu dipertanyakan. Membuat pikiran yang kalang kabut menjadi lebih kompleks. 

Berpikir dan terus berpikir, tentang masa depan, terbayang masa lalu, tapi sering melupakan masa kini. Masa kini yang seharusnya menjadi hadiah, karena today is a present. 

Jika saat ini kamu sedang mempertanyakan akan hal berat yang menimpamu hari ini. Beristirahatlah...

Mungkin lebih baik jangan terlalu mengharap kegembiraan pada hal yang belum terjadi. 

Berikan sedikit ruang untuk rasa kecewa.

Selalu lebih baik untuk mendapat kejutan daripada merasa kecewa. 

Di sisi lain, jangan terlalu takut pada hal yang belum terjadi. 

Sebab hal-hal yang aku takutkan belum tentu semenakutkan yang aku pikirkan. 

Dan, sesuatu yang menimpaku tidaklah tanpa alasan, meskipun aku belum tahu alasan itu sekarang. 

Karena setiap kejadian akan memberikan sebuah pelajaran. 

"Percayalah, di saat kamu ikhlas dengan keadaanmu, disitulah Allah SWT merencanakan kebahagiaan untukmu, Allah SWT mampu mengubah situasi paling terpuruk menjadi momen terbaik dalam hidupmu." - K.H. Maimoen Zubair

『上には上にがある』

"There's always something greater"

Hey, you!

How are you? 

Is there something that burden you?

Uncertainty oftentimes put ourselves into two condition, between good and bad. Yet, sometimes what we define good isn't something really good, and vice versa.

Uncertainty also a kind of unpredictable things which may happened in the future. Yet, we can always learn something from the past.

Uncertainty,

Because there's a higher power who control it. 

Cr: Hospital Playlist Season 1

This May, perhaps teaches me another lessons to grow. 

Sometimes I couldn't understand why but in the end I'm learning that actually everything that I'm going through have reasons. 

                                       Everything has a reason. 

I have to believe that I can go through these all. 

The mundane life, difficult days, happy days... Everything. With the help of God, with the help of families and friends or even strangers. 

... It doesn't have direct correlation with love. Everything I've talked before, but somehow explaining it with this topic sounds more understandable. 

Well, sometimes I'm too afraid for being on my own, like you can say being single. 

Although when I'm doing something I can say that I can do it on my own. I can go to the hospital by myself, going to supermarket alone, McD time on my own, or hanging out at a cafe with one cup of coffee (read:I'm alone).

Let's say that I don't hate being alone but it's more awesome if I can do everything I like with someone special. 

... Yet, sometimes I also don't want to be in a situation where I can't become myself, not so sure about my own self, or afraid of serious relationship. 

By the way, I'm sure that everyone has their own struggles, some might have the same thoughts as mine, and it's okay isn't to not rushing everything, just because we want to be like somebody elses? 

It's my own journey of finding my other half.  There will be the time when I will finally say, "It's worth a wait!! "

Maybe right now your journey is about you. 

Yes darling, Maybe your journey now is not about love. Maybe right now your journey is about you. Maybe this is a season you are being challenged to be your own savior. 

To be your own safe place. Maybe right now you are being reminded that the people who walked away were only ever leading you back to yourself. Were only ever leading you here. 

And here, you are okay on your own. You're rebuilding. 

Here you're adapting and mending and reclaiming all of the pieces you let them walk away with. 

Here, you are being kinder to your soul. 

You're giving yourself the same kind of love you have always given to others. 

Here, you are not rushing your heart. 

You are not depending on another human being to fix it. Instead, here, you are doing that on your own. 

Here, you are healing. [cr: @rainbowsalt]

And... The lessons to be learned. 

I'm not going to rush anything. 

I'm not going to stress out or worry about how things will work out for me. Instead of overthinking, I will align my faith with divine timing and trust that everything that belongs in my life is making its way towards me right now. I know that the universe will deliver. In the meantime, I'll continue to get better and evolve so I can make room for new energy to enter my life. 

Hoarding a piece of feelings at a time.  

What is it like? 

Even though it won't be revealed, I'm sure our pure affection will definitely reach the person we're aiming for. 

....... Even if it's late or not in our reference of time.

In terms of feelings, happiness becomes an innocent thing.  

Often we ignore the feelings that are owned by ourselves, because we are more concerned with the feelings of others.

Sometimes we enjoy pain and sadness.  

These become part of the feeling of anxiety if something bad happens to that person. 

In fact, sometimes the ego is defeated, "As long as you are happy, I'm okay."

From the moment the feelings echoes in the mind, we could be blinded by it.  

Logically goes, but is completely defeated by feelings.

If it's like that, whether we like it or not we are willing to sacrifice, willing to do something as long as the person can live a good life.

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Even though the feelings isn't mutual, are we sure we are sincere?

Initially, it is undeniable that the sense of belonging always arises.  

The feelings of wanting to be together.  

The desire to continue to be considered there.  

The fondness of wanting to be used as a reinforcement. 

Stage of Being Sincere

However, there are those who reach the stage of being sincere.  

She believes that basically, everything she does is to give happiness.

 ''It is more happiness to give, not to receive!"

Maybe we think that as a giver of happiness, there will surely be times when she will get bored, right?  

That's right, the giver of happiness will feel boredom.  However, if she is sincere, the giver of happiness will not think too much about reciprocity.

『The real test of sincerity is to see whether a person will help you even if he knows he will get nothing in return. The truth is anyone can help when there’s something to gain; but to help when there’s nothing in return shows true love & a beautiful heart』- Mufti Menk

The giver of happiness becomes someone who is good, continues to help, and is certain because there is a basis of feeling.  But, when she is sincere, and stops giving happiness, it doesn't mean she is tired and reluctant to be a source of happiness for that person. 

About Priority

It could be, she has found someone she prioritizes more.  Because of that, this feeling shifts to the person she thinks is more deserving of it.

And once again, as long as you are happy that is fine, but as long as yourself are happy, has it ever occurred to you?

Well, let's consider for a moment, before we give something good.  

As long as you are happy, but I do not suffer. 

   Also Read : Happiness Starts Within

Perhaps, you see that others' people life are more colorful. 

However, No, no.. That don't always happen that way. 

Learn to be more grateful. Learn  to be more ok. 

This world is on rush. Full of people seeking for meaning. 

The day without a meaning is also a good day. 

Let's keep calm and enjoy the mundane life. 

Because who knows, 『nothing happening means a gift from God to be in peace』.